I go through long periods of time being numb, however i don’t realise that i actually do not feel anything. i go through life how i should, do the job, pay the bills, feed myself and make myself sleep then do the same again for months and months.Then out of nowhere when iam least expecting it, the sky looks clearer and the stars seem evermore beautiful, the air i breathe feels fresh and i become increasingly aware of how i am breathing, i feel like i can feel everything, hear everything, see everything. i bask in the glory of this feeling until i realise that i not only feel the good things, but i also feel the bad unwanted feelings and they come on just as powerful as the beauty once did. only then do i realise i have been numb, shut it all out, shut it out to save myself, shut it out to be normal. but i miss feeling elated, i miss feeling every strand of grass and appreciating how green and how amazingly beautiful it is, i miss noticing the redness in peoples lips, the sparkle in peoples eyes and the hidden smiles. But i do not miss the other, the dark, the frightening all consuming blackness that stifles the beautiful and turns it into a nightmare. so i hide it all away, and carry on as i should until something triggers that longing in my heart for freedom.
So, here it is; my voice challenge, as requested by goifyouwantto XD
i could listen to this voice all day :)
Do you know the horrors that happened where you’re standing?
Life goes on, strange isn’t it?
faig ahmed’s Embroidered Art
When you think of traditional carpets from Azerbaijan, the thought of contemporary art does not quickly spring to mind… but these beautiful, and modern works will change that. Faiq Ahmed, a native of the Eurasian nation, has taken his countries old-school art form and brought it beautifully into the current era, deconstructing the ancient process of weaving and adapting it to todays contemporary art forms.
My Benedict Cumberbatch as Sherlock Holmes study.